Good byes

So much has happened in the past few weeks. I had a new office partner start ( Yeah ), we had our annual health dept survey ( and passed, double yeah ) and I switched to a modified juice feast.

My body wants to do a full blown juice feast, but my emotions are not ready for it. With the addition on 2 quarts of green juice daily my whole life is changing. Physically I'm losing weight, albeit slowly. My eyes are becoming greener and my skin is becoming smoother. The other big thing is that I'm having alot of old fears and emotions coming up to be released. Normally I would say this is a good thing ( and ultimately it is), but it is very hard to go through heavy emotions when you don't really have anyone to share your feelings with. My family and closest friends live out of state, so I have been feeling quite alone. Actually, this is one of the biggest emotions that I'm working on releasing and it is also why I switched to a modified juice feast. I really felt like I needed something cooked to ground me ( or push down the emotions ), I guess it all depends on how you look at it.

In the past I have been unavailable to friendships and romantic relationships, this is something I have been working on. I have recently found that some friendships are slowly leaving my life and I have been looking closely at this. I actually took some big steps to try and keep these friendships in my life because afterall, I want to be available for relationships, be it friendships or something more. I have found that no matter what I do or don't do, they are slowly leaving.

These friendships were wonderful and nothing bad happened, just people moving away and moving on. Thank you God for blessing my life with April and Peter, they will forever be in my heart.

Until next time.....

SM